For two nights in a row, we've been playing the strategy board game Carcassonne (N.B. Not we as in Cats, I don't want to stain their reputation).
I've played it a few times before, but today's game just confirmed my self image – I've got no sense whatsoever for any kind of strategy games, which probably extrapolates to strategic thinking in general. I learn the rules quickly and I understand the objectives, but I can't for my life make any good strategic decisions. I just don't see the big picture and I can't see ahead. I realize that I can't evaluate every possible move or game structure, but I can never tell which ones are decisive either. I react emotionally the moves of my opponents and I quickly become occupied by some petty detail, letting the rest of the game slide.
At first I curse myself a little, just to show the opponents that I know that my moves where stupid (but often I'm not too sure about that either). Then, when I see that I'm losing, my swearing is reduced to sighs and declarations of surrender. Eventually I sit there quiet, with an empty stare, thinking dark thoughts.
written by Mattias