Thoughts about thoughts
ago an idea was imprinted on my mind, that even I could become wise by just
living old enough and going through human experiences, my own and those loaned
from others, as many times as necessary. But being wise encloses apparently a
further demand, that I then should understand the true meaning of life at least
in regard to myself.
course some ideas have already found home in me, become familiar and manageable,
even somehow understandable. But could that be called wisdom or just a pile of
thoughts, seeds of wisdom, mostly even non germinative?
human mind is all the time trying to reach some object, whether a concrete or an
abstract one, to which it can identify its thoughts and feelings in order to
find itself useful or acceptable. To the mind empty or silent means the same as
to become stupid and vain – a threat of losing itself!
believes that thoughts, feelings, forms and sensory perceptions as a whole are a
person himself, an individual identity worth holding on by all powers in order
to maintain so called mental health!
the human mind ever be fully sane, if by sanity we mean seeing things really as
they are? The history of mankind offers a convincing evidence of the collective
madness of mankind, a history, which is entirely based on the unreliable
functions of the human mind.
common word man comes from the Sanskrit word manas, which in a broad sense means
a principle of reason. The capability for reasoning is often said to separate us
humans from other species of this earth in our favour. But is it really a
sublime skill in the form and usage it appears among us today? Can it for
example make us permanently happy? Or is it the thing that holds us imprisoned
into continuous thinking, feeling and sensory processes with no peace and
lasting happiness. Of course there are huge differences in the quality of human
reasoning – from rude automatic reactions to highest inspirations.
suggesting that we should entirely stop thinking and feeling so as to avoid
going astray? Thinking with all its limitations is really a good tool in this
material world. It can solve many practical issues, but it cannot give proper
answers to any fundamental questions of life. What is life, why are we here on
earth a little while and then in turn seem to disappear – who knows where? Can
there be life after life, and what would it be like? If life is really eternal,
so the previous question would evidently become a contradictory one – for in
that case life is not either coming or going - it just is! This kind of view
could even suggest that in some fundamental level every being is always alive,
but not knowing ones basic state because of the identification to the functions
of the mind.
one thing I have learnt. Digging up ones life does not lead anywhere – or why
not – it could lead to fear of tomorrow, in the way that yesterday’s
unpleasant events turn into shadowing threats for ones future. On the other hand
waiting for better might become a reason to move the starting point of ones
living from this moment to some distant period in the future.
come to the conclusion that all of us are mentally writing an autobiography,
ones own story called ‘me and the others’. In that story I am usually a
secret hero whom the world has not yet recognized, or in different circumstances
an ill-treated martyr who is waiting for a great compensation sometimes in the
authors, that is what we are, continuously interpreting ourselves to ourselves,
sometimes even believing our sophisticated explanations.
a few have courage to make ones ideas public. Maybe we are afraid that others do
not necessarily recognize us on the basis of our story. They could say that the
story is a fake or even a quotation of some better author. It is often difficult
to tell myself what part of me represents the real me, and what part is just an
infection caused by other people.
little mind, the one that we call our self, this world of ours is an enormous
mixer. How is it possible to separate good grain from husk, considering that a
human mind hardly knows itself? The old request, that a man should know himself,
does not help much, for even the greatest ideas tend finally to lead us to a
conclusion that everything in life is relative does not solve anything,
especially if a human being wants to find something absolute and permanent.
history of stupidity – that could be a name for the rambling of mankind. But
history in itself is but dead words, and the future is just a huge pile of ideas
based on yesterday. It is sure that we can live only at this very moment – not
yesterday or today. For us humans this fact has always been utmostly difficult
to accept, because we think we have a history. On the basis of the past we
create an image of our future in which all our ideas should gain their
fulfilment. This moment is just an ever open door to all the goals of our lives.
possibilities are waiting in the future, where we also can perform such fine
works as the greatest figures of the human history. But we should see that
history is often but a coloured story written by winners. Could we but ask about
the greatness of Alexander the Great of the thousands who were crucified by his
command during his famous works? And what would say about the idea of loving
ones neighbour the numerous people who had to meet with the opposite of the
principle, an extremely cruel religious intolerance?
fairly convinced that thinking, even stretched at its utmost, cannot ever reach
anything absolute, free of the limits of time. Thinking should be stretched far
beyond its breaking point so that it would by itself see its own limitations and
would realize at last to be quiet.
being entirely quiet seems to the human mind as its worst enemy; for it assures
a person that he might end up as nothing or in a state where all his fears and
feelings of guilt suddenly step forth.
human mind demands that the identity of a human being as a separate individual,
would remain above all else.
well be, that in old women we could find the wisdom welling forth out of the
depths of their souls from which all the self-centred feelings have been cried
out and which is totally lacking the common manly illusion, that thinking can
solve all things.
the people that are considered the wisest of all have ensured us that life
basically is sacred and divine. An everyday observation would certainly lead to
a very different kind of conclusion. Perhaps all those wise men and women looked
at life from a different angle leaving totally aside the perspective based on
time. Maybe they saw everything from the eternal, timeless ground of all that
the wisest advised us first and foremost to seek the kingdom of heaven. Only
after finding this unchangeable realm or state all things can be experienced in
the right light. But we human beings want to understand our heaven as a place
where all our senses and other needs get a full satisfaction. And as we usually
cannot get hold of heaven without time and other temporal concepts, we rather
start seeking the warm and sunny beaches of this world than try to concentrate
on something that lies beyond the ability of our everyday power of comprehension.
scientists are talking about the ‘big bang’ as the beginning of all that
there exists. But in reality they cannot tell us anything about the state in
where and what way this fundamental event of all events happened, because it was
only then that time and space appear, giving the fundamentals of the thinking of
our wise men and women.
course we could have a look at the Eastern ideas of how the universe comes into
existence and how it in due course again returns to rest. Wise men in the East
have said thousands of years ago that all forms are temporal, and that there is
an interchange from formless to form even in the level of the universe. Eastern
scriptures talk about manvantaras and pralayas, the former of which means the
emanation in time and space the latter meaning a huge period of rest or
non-existence from a material point of view. But do they say that life itself is
a completely vanishing thing? No, in fact life is all that really is, an eternal
life on which everything has its being – sometimes coming forth in time and
space, but always being in the timeless and formless essence.
materialistic scientists all this is usually pure nonsense, for they rely on our
senses not taking account that human consciousness could have some deeper
abilities of knowing the things that cannot be explored by five senses or by any
thousand years ago this kind of knowing was called gnosis. It is very likely
that not all the so called Gnostics were able to stretch their conscience into
the basis of life, but it is also likely that some of them were much more aware
of reality than the spokesmen of the Catholic Church declared.
that I now have come to a dead end, because I am assuming that human ability of
thinking for its conditional character never can explain the most important
issues of life. Should I now accept the words of Tertullus,
“I believe, because it is absurd”, and take more seriously all the so
called sacred scriptures? Or is there for a human being available a completely
different way of approaching these unresolved questions? Is it probable that
beyond the entire thinkable things one could find an entire and total knowledge
reachable to the human consciousness that can overstep all the limits of its
ordinary mental processes?
pretty sure, that some of the finest individuals in human history really have
found and experienced the essence of life and have tried to transmit something
of it at least to their disciples. It is quite obvious that some of the
followers have merely imagined having reached the ultimate goal, whereas they in
fact had just taken the first step on the path leading to the realization.
further conclusion of my thinking is that the ground of all must rather be found
inside than outside of a conscious being, because all external things are but
results and consequences of temporary nature.
outcomes of mental imagination may seem lively and interesting, but to a great
extent they are based on past thought forms, not on the essence beyond all.
the wise men said that all good things come from above, where there exists no
change – in other words no time. If this is to be taken as a right conclusion
so I should by all means try to lead my consciousness into a state where it
could be able to draw directly from the ultimate source – being one with it.
what I believe, but unfortunately my belief has not reached this final goal and
made me wise – not to talk about turning me blessed! And if I am not blessed
in this very moment, so I have no reason to wait for illumination in the future,
for future is but a pile of thoughts based on my past.
only thing for me is to avoid coming and going, so that I simply could be alive,
in the timeless here and now – in eternal life.